I NEED YOU MORE

I need You more
More than yesterday
I need You Lord
More than words can say
I need You more
Than ever before
I need You Lord
I need You Lord

More than the air I breathe
More than the song I sing
More than the next heartbeat
More than anything
And Lord as time goes by
I'll be by Your side
Cause I never want to go back To my old life

By Lindell Cooley
(not sure who else sings this, but the website I found the lyrics on had this name)

It seems like such a simple song doesn't it, yet everytime I hear this song or everytime my children are singing it my heart moves. I think of all that's behind me and I'm thankful its back there because I never want to go back to my old life. That life taught me a lot yes, it taught me about pain and heartache and sadness and tears. It taught me about all the mistakes I never want to make again. It taught me all about the person I never want to be again. It taught me about all the words I never want to say again and all the thoughts I never want to think again. It taught me all about who I am nothing like today. I'm not perfect and I do make mistakes still, but I've got a new life that replaced a very sad life. I still cry sometimes and there are still heartaches, but nothing compares to the love of Jesus. Nothing compares to knowing how much I needed him today and how much more I need him tomorrow. Nothing compares to knowing that I just can't make it without him and nothing compares to knowing that he rescued me from my old life. And since it says in his word that there is no respect of persons then he will rescue you too.

Romans 2:11 - For there is no respect of persons with God

And Remember

YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB ON THIS SINGLE PARENT JOURNEY

God Bless You!!

IM FORGIVEN

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I’m reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms I know what I am
I’m forgiven I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry
The weight of who I’ve been
Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night
When I wrestle with my pain, struggle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

When I don’t fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ

By Sanctus Real

When I got down on my knees at a little altar to tell God I was sorry for all the wrong I'd done, that I was sorry for the woman I'd become, that I was sorry for all the times I let him down, I know there wasn't a waiting period, I know he forgot and forgave me at that moment. He never threw those mistakes in my face again. But, the devil has a way of making us remember every bad word we've spoken, every wrong decision we've made, every person we let down, every person we hurt, every toe we stepped on along the way, every bad choice, and every single mistake that ever crossed our path. He does remind me in the middle of the night; when I lay awake looking at my children I am reminded of all the pain I could have saved them from if I had followed God's plan for my life and not made the mistakes I did. That and all of those failures I've made in my life come to haunt me often and they tell me I'm not good enough, that I should just give up, that I'm never going to amount to anything and that I'm still not worth it and that may be all true except and I love this part "When I don’t fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere - When I don’t measure up to much in this life - Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ." And I do feel alone and I do cry often when no one hears me, when my children have laid down to rest and its just me alone wondering if I'm doing right by my children. Except now as opposed to then I cry to Jesus and I tell him I'm lost and I need you to lead my way, I'm broken and I need you to fix me, I'm a mess and I need you to clean me up, and I can't do this on my own. And then every so often even though I have a long way to go and I'm not perfect he reminds me of who I am now. I may not be much, but I am the child of a King and I am a single, hardworking, independant mother who loves her children and more than that loves God. And I don't have to be reminded of my past everyday - it's where it needs to be and its where it is what it is MY PAST becasue IM FORGIVEN. For all of you out there who allows Satan to remind you of your past tell him to get behind you - tell him you don't have time for him, tell him he has no power over you now, tell him if he's got a problem take it up with your Father (Jesus).

And remember

YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB ON THIS SINGLE PARENT JOURNEY

God Bless You!