Your Moment

My son Aiden is the most amazing little boy I know. He has a heart that knows no boundaries and his love for God has always blessed me in extraordinary ways. He would do things like lay his hands on me and pray with such faith. He would sing "The Old Rugged Cross" as if he was born to sing it. He would say things like "God is sitting right there beside you mom" and it made everything alright. He's smart, curious, funny, playful, entertaining, and he's one of my greatest blessings. How did I get to be his mommy? I go back often to becoming a mom for the first time and thinking of all the responsibility that lay ahead of us as parents. I never knew on the other hand that I would be doing this all alone, but I also never realized that God knew the exact plan for my life and that's why he gave me Aiden. I reminisce on sneaking into his room late at night and looking over in the crib and just thinking, "I can't believe he is mine, he's perfect". As another year swiftly passes it is bitter sweet; I love watching him grow and change. I love wondering what kind of man he'll be one day. I love his tender spirit and his kind heart. But I remember like yesterday baby Aiden; can I go back for just a minute please; I want to go back to midnight cries; where I rock him in my arms. To 6am bottle feedings where it’s just me and him and I tell him all he's going to be one day. To swinging him around in a circle and hearing his contagious laughter. To those moments when he was very small and he looked at me like I was his biggest hero. To playing peek-a-boo with the cutest little boy in the world. To watching him sleep and feeling his chest a hundred times to make sure he was breathing. I just want to relive that moment that they laid a tiny 6 lb 9 oz baby boy who at that moment became all I knew of true unconditional love on my chest. Because nothing compares to being mommy to Aiden and Anica.

One of the realities of being a single parent is that at some point we ask questions like "Am I doing this right"? In our journey as single parents I believe a great moment comes along when we are recognized by the one's that matter most; our children. I mean let's face it; we do the very best we can as parents. We wake up every morning and pray that we are making the best, moral, and Godly choices for our children that we can. That "incredible" moment came for me a few weeks ago when Aiden had back to school night. It's no secret to most of you if not all, that my children have a very extended family. They have a little brother named Avry, his mother, their dad, their dad's girlfriend; their two children Alijah and Alayna, and they have me. Aiden's class was asked to draw a picture of their family. When the teacher told me, my mind started running wild just wondering who Aiden had included in his picture of his family. As I approached the drawing their was a single girl in the block listed family. I asked Aiden who it was and he smiled that smile that can just melt your heart and said, "You". I said, "Honey you have more family than just me". He turned to me with those big brown eyes and said; "But you're always there mom". I may not always do things just right and sure I make mistakes as a mom, but even at the most difficult times, even when I feel like being a single mom is just too hard I will think back to that moment; I am my children's biggest hero. I teach them that we need Jesus more than anything, I'm there when the nightmares come to soothe them back to sleepytown, I hold them when their hearts are broken, I kiss their boo boos and make tummyaches better, I teach lessons like never giving up when we sing The Itsy Bitsy Spider and above all I'm their biggest fan. But one day I hope they know I'll never teach them all they've taught me and how truly blessed I am that they are mine. And I so I just want you to know that your moment is on it's way!

Aiden 09/29/03 Happy Birthday Aiden I'm so proud of you.

And Remember

YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB ON THIS SINGLE PARENT JOURNEY

God Bless You!!